Image: Mine; Ice storm “castings” in the garden (from a few years ago)
I am pleased to be writing from other side, more or less, of the health “challenge” I alluded to in a post last year. I am back on my feet and have begun to reengage with my studio practice, which is already pulling me in various directions. Some things I now know for sure: I am more in love than ever with this Work in its myriad facets. I am more relaxed than ever about it, too. Fear was at the root of so much of what I did before; fearlessness has moved in to take its place.
There’s nothing like a major illness (or other significant life change) to shake loose habitual patterns and force a reexamination of one’s motivations. In that spirit, I am compelled to dive back down into my creative soul and explore my roots – teasing out the fundamental tendrils, breaking up the dense, knotty scar tissue blocking the flow, and loosening the soil a bit to unlock the deep nutrients . (Nothing like a good botanical metaphor.) I want to expand the on-going conversation I have with myself about what inspires, enhances flow. I also want to understand more fully what expires, inhibits flow by taking a look at the influence of preparation and planning on finished product. That is, look at, not for the first time but in a specific way, the tension that exists between process and product. For example, is it really possible to fully let go of the planning, the pre-visualizing, and the expectations and just make art? What does that look and feel like? To what extent am I doing that already? How much does it matter? What is the nature of the resultant work? Etc. These are just a few of the ideas I want to investigate this year – both in this blog and through the work itself.
I thank you for following/reading. This is not the first time I have relayed my struggles the blogging process – I love writing but I am hopelessly inconsistent. Yet, something within values it and will not let it go… so I continue. Maybe this year I will actually post more frequently and with regularity – stranger things have happened!